I am sad because I don’t want this to end. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. I am confused to why you were so mean. Where did this come from? I am mad at myself for forgiving you so quickly because I want you in my life. I am scared that you won’t apologize, or worse, that you won’t be in my life anymore. I am mad at myself because I am not sticking up for myself. But really, I just want to rewind the last 24 hours and redo everything and have you back in my bed. I really can’t sleep without you.
I want to live in the beautiful house that I found. I want to live there with a beautiful, smart, kind, funny boy who loves nothing more than to read books next to me. I want to live this life while wearing everything that Wildfox and Agent Prococateur have ever made. And to do all this while driving a vintage silver Mercedes.